I sing because I'm happy

"I sought the LORD and He answered me, he delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to Him are radiant!  Their faces shall never be ashamed." - Psalm 34:4-5.

It looks like its been almost 3 months since I've made a post on here. I've been a rather busy girl finishing up my hardest year of pharmacy school (as I mentioned before, I am no genius)... and now, I can say with such great JOY that I am a last-year pharmacy student!  I'm joyful not simply because I've gotten through a hard year, but because I know it's where the Lord wants me to be.  There is no better feeling than that.  As Chad said at our engagement and as it was repeated by Dr. Barnes on our wedding day, "I know this is right, because there is the absence of doubt- isn't that a great feeling?" When you know something is completely impossible on your  own and you somehow accomplish it, you then realize that is only because it is the Lord's will and it will prevail.  As the Lord told Jeremiah, "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind.  Is there anything too hard for me?" 

 It's been a very tough few months as I have had to completely let go of all of my selfish ambitions and ask the Lord for His will in my life.  After getting over the "what if I've wasted 6 years of my life doing this?" and "what if it's in the Lord's will for me to fail and repeat this year," I finally accepted that it was OK if those things were true. The Lord did allow me to experience some failure, but only enough to take me to the absolute end of the cliff... and once I felt as if I were falling, he showed me that he will ALWAYS catch me. I'm thankful that he took me to the edge... For there I gained a completely renewed trust.  

So for now, I have some uncertainty ahead in trying to decide exactly what I'm supposed to do after school.  Thank goodness I don't have to rely on myself to figure that out.  I can rest in the comfort of my faith, for the power of prayer is limitless,  and His will is absolutely perfect.

I start my clinical rotations on Tuesday... I'm a little nervous but beyond grateful for the opportunity.  

Such a fun summer ahead- reunions, porch parties, weddings, and more weddings!  AND, even more of my dearest friends are moving to town!  I'm one happy girl.  

I sing because I'm happy

I sing because I'm free

His eye is on the sparrow

And I know he watches me. 

-Hart