To blog or not to blog?

I've asked myself this question several times over the past few months... Yes, it is nearing 6 months since I've made an appearance here, and there are several reasons for that.  Like everyone else, I've been pretty busy... Secondly, I didn't want a blog to feel like a chore.  Thirdly, I have been really struggling with the point of my blog.  My dad cracks me up... on our family vacation a couple of weeks ago, he asked the million dollar question...

Dad: Hart, what is a blog???
Me: Well, it can be a lot of different things...
[Chad interrupts: It's like a diary on the internet!]
Me: No, not necessarily.  Sometimes it's peoples thoughts and ideas.  Sometimes its recipes or the latest fashions.... Sometimes its just an inspiring thought... Mostly people sharing happy times or "things to try..."
Dad:  You mean to tell me that people write about themselves on a webpage and think that other people care to read it?
Me: Dad, your missing the point...
[Chad interrupts again: Yes, Van.]

Anyway, the rest of the conversation went something like me trying to rationalize why people blog..

What I didn't tell Dad is that I actually have one. Ha! Again, he's a guy and I think for the most part, they don't appreciate a cool DIY or new recipe... or what anyone else does or think.  Most guys don't care and oh how I wish I was like them sometimes!  But it made me stop and think... Most people do only blog about their happy times.  I mean lets be real, I don't want to read about someone's horrible day... I'd rather ponder the happy, myself!  However, when I read other people's blogs, it sometimes leaves me feeling insufficient or "Oh, I wish I had that" or "I really need that" or "My life is so boring" or "Why can't I just be a Mom..."  this list goes on.  Basically it makes me want to live in some fantasy world where all I do is bake, garden, make projects, travel the world, and be happy ALL the time.

Now, before I am misunderstood, I want to make sure you know that this post is about ME and MY blog.  All you bloggers out there, keep doing your thing- I enjoy you so mcuh!  Many blogs I read are super encouraging and the writers are very transparent- and man do I appreciate that.  Also, a lot of blogs I read have a theme or specific audience.  Many blogs are for a certain adventure, a mission trip or a new lifestyle change- those are all so great.  For me... well... I don't feel like I really have a point.. you know?  I'm just living life and the LAST thing I want to do is portray that it is in any way perfect.  I have my highs and definitely my lows.  Yes I have a sweet husband and cute dog, and yes, I love to cook and grow things, and yes, I have the dearest friends in the world.... but I am also a sinner in need of grace, I mess up a LOT, I put my foot in my mouth more than not, and like everyone else, I have the more than occasional emotional breakdown. So if I do decide to keep up the blog, please know that.

In the meantime, I'll be deciding a direction for this little space on the internet (and get adjusted to my new job).  Hang in there- I'll probably be back and hopefully with something that will be worth your time.  Hope you are having a happy summer!

Hart